Why I do what I do....

The day I found my son after he had taken his life by suicide my heart was broken.  Broken hearts, shattered spirits, and painful situations help open us up to God's healing presence.  I understand that not everyone grieves in the same way or on the same schedule. I am often asked how I do what I do.  How do you talk about suicide so openly?  How do you get in front of cameras and crowds of people and speak and not break down?  How do you talk about such emotional things without hysterically crying?  I do these things because it's not about me.  It's about helping others.  It's about honoring my son's life and memory while bringing glory to God.

The day my worst nightmare became my reality, I remember crying out to God. I begged God to help me survive this.  I begged God to not let my son's death be the end of his story.  I promised God that I would do anything in my power to use this tragedy for His glory if He allows me.  I knew in that moment that I would not be ashamed.  I would speak openly and honestly about my son's story.  I have been so blessed to have been introduced and put in the path of many amazing people who have helped me with many opportunities to educate and support others in my journey.  I realize that not everyone is comfortable with speaking outwardly about their suicide loss or putting their child's name on a billboard, and that is OK.  We all have our own pain and will find our own purpose in our journey.  You don't have to speak up because I will speak up for all of us.  God is my light and leads my way. 1 John 1:7  If we walk in the light, and He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, His Son, purifies us from all sin.

It is important that people are education on suicide and mental illness.  It is important that Tommy's story and life be honored.  It's important that I keep Tommy's memory alive.  It is important that I share my faith journey with anyone who will listen.  It is important to my healing process that I focus on helping others.  This is why I do what I do.