Not for a moment will you forsake me

Yesterday I attended a funeral for some good friends brother who passed unexpectedly at 54.  This was the first funeral I have had to attend since my son lost his life to suicide.  As you can imagine funerals are even more difficult for me now.  The emotions are still so raw and its a reminder of how precious life is and how much we miss Tommy.  I left the funeral, got in my car and began sobbing uncontrollably because I was so overcome with grief and emotions.  When I finally calmed down enough to start the car the first song that played was: Not For A Moment by Meredith Andrews.  Here are some of the lyrics:

And every step, every breath you are there

Every tear, every cry, every prayer
In my hurt, at my worst
When my world falls down
Not for a moment will You forsake me
Even in the dark
Even when it's hard
You will never leave me
After all
Not for a moment will You forsake me

God has know used this song twice now to remind me that he has not forsaken me. He is still with me and will never leave me. 

The second song that played was: I Am Not Alone by Kari Jobe.  Here are some of those lyrics:

In the midst of deep sorrow
I see your light is breaking through
The dark night will not over take me
I am pressing into you
Lord you fight my every battle
And I will not fear

You amaze me
Redeem me
You call me as your own
In my shame
You're my defender
You're my refuge in the storm
Through these trials
You have always been faithful
You bring healing to my soul

I have tried to explain to so many how although I hurt deeply and miss my son more than words can say, that I do know the light of the Lord is shining down on me and he is defending me in this battle, fighting for me to remain faithful so that he can bring healing to my soul.  Thank you Lord.